So, I promised someone a post about sex drives. And, then something happened.
(Since I have mostly dated men, this is mostly about how I date men. My relationships with women are different 
First. I have a very high sex drive. However, I also am slightly picky about who I choose to have sex with, and I am picky about some circumstances.
Secondly. I have done an awful lot of emotional work on accepting my sexuality. I accept my sex drive, and I choose partners that are understanding of that fact. I like being a slut, I like enjoying my sexuality, and I use condoms when I do partake in fun If anyone has a problem with this, they need to not be dating me.
Third. I would enjoy sex 2-3 times per day. Every day (as long as I was getting enough sleep.) However, I do need to know that my partner is enjoying it that much. And, “sex” does not mean “penis inside me” (thought that is a lot of fun). I really think this is just “affirming that I am sexually wanted,” and this could be a great many things. When I am in a long term relationship with lots of togetherness, we can discuss more about what this means to me.
Fourth. I kinda dislike being rejected. I have worked hard to make my partners understand that its okay to turn me down, and that I know that mostly everyone I date will not be able to keep up with me. This is also why I am polyamorous But, a side effect is that I will hardly ever tell my partner(s) no. I have some specific scenarios that are not okay, and I might turn down certain kinds of sex, but in almost all cases my partner can ask for something (sexually) and I will say yes. (Side note: One of my current partners has fun with this. Thinks of scenarios in which I may not want to have sex, just to hear me say yes to them. Fun times
Which, given these points, its weird that I just turned down sex for one of the first times in my life. Like, actual “sex is about to happen” kinda sex. Why? It felt too much like sex before, like sex that was not going to be good. In talking about it afterward, neither of us was really turned on.
One of my lovers says its my picky side coming out, and that its a very mature thing to do. 
I’ll get through it
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